World Cup Day 9 & Trust
0:00 Czech Republic 0 Ghana 2
3:00 Italy 1 USA 1
21:00 Japan 0 Croatia 0
I remember quite vividly one moment of my life in primary school. I was with a couple of friends and we were chatting about the year 2000. It seemed to us then, that the year 2000 was something very distant. It seemed like a day which will never come. We were pondering on questions like, will the world end? How old will we be? 16 years old seemed pretty grown up.
After ten years, when I think back of that moment, I feel very amazed. All of us have grown up and are all leading different lives. Some are successful, some are not so. Some are happy, some are not. Some are married, and some have left this world prematurely.
I keep thinking.
What happens if we did know what the future held for us? What happened if 10 years ago, at that moment, my friend knew that by the year 2006, she'll be happily married to a wonderful husband? What about that friend who so sadly ended her own life last year?
There are many clairvoyants around. Fortune-tellers, palm-readers, tarot card readers and so on. I guess none of us will really know if they can really foretell the future. Oh well, we don't even know if our lives are written down like a story in a book, or if we have the ability to change the destiny of our lives.
Assuming they can tell us our future, is it a good thing? Life is like a blindfolded journey. We don't know about tomorrow, or the day after. We only know what is installed for us, when we have actually stepped that step. It is frustrating sometimes, and occasionally we do have the urge to lift that blindfold and take a quick peek.
Yet isn't it frightening? Isn't it frightening to know exactly what will happen to you? To know exactly who you'll marry, or how many kids you'll have, and when you'll die.
Its like walking into a doctor's office only to be told you have six months left to live. Would that be a better way to die? Or would you rather not know until the very end? Would it be better to be in the know, and then learn to lead a more meaningful life and make time for your loved ones? Is the pressure too great then?
In RCIY today, I was asked, who do you trust to lead you through life?
I think in my whole life, the answer is the same - my parents. Definitely, they are the ones I trust most. I trust them more than I trust myself. Sometimes I tend to overestimate myself and I make the wrong decisions, up till a point where I begin to distrust myself. I think I have lost confidence in myself and my ability to decisions. I'm beginning to get very fearful to the point that I think I trust others more than myself. I regret some things which I have not done. I regret them every single day of my life.
So I place my trust in my parents and... God. Yes, I do pray sometimes to ask Him for help and I do gain solace in that.
But I'm still fearful.
Today, I stood infront of the figure of Mary, Mother of Christ in front of IHM church and looked into her eyes which were strangely staring back at me. I know it sounds weird, but it was strangely comforting. So in front of her, I made a silent prayer.
God, grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference.
3:00 Italy 1 USA 1
21:00 Japan 0 Croatia 0
I remember quite vividly one moment of my life in primary school. I was with a couple of friends and we were chatting about the year 2000. It seemed to us then, that the year 2000 was something very distant. It seemed like a day which will never come. We were pondering on questions like, will the world end? How old will we be? 16 years old seemed pretty grown up.
After ten years, when I think back of that moment, I feel very amazed. All of us have grown up and are all leading different lives. Some are successful, some are not so. Some are happy, some are not. Some are married, and some have left this world prematurely.
I keep thinking.
What happens if we did know what the future held for us? What happened if 10 years ago, at that moment, my friend knew that by the year 2006, she'll be happily married to a wonderful husband? What about that friend who so sadly ended her own life last year?
There are many clairvoyants around. Fortune-tellers, palm-readers, tarot card readers and so on. I guess none of us will really know if they can really foretell the future. Oh well, we don't even know if our lives are written down like a story in a book, or if we have the ability to change the destiny of our lives.
Assuming they can tell us our future, is it a good thing? Life is like a blindfolded journey. We don't know about tomorrow, or the day after. We only know what is installed for us, when we have actually stepped that step. It is frustrating sometimes, and occasionally we do have the urge to lift that blindfold and take a quick peek.
Yet isn't it frightening? Isn't it frightening to know exactly what will happen to you? To know exactly who you'll marry, or how many kids you'll have, and when you'll die.
Its like walking into a doctor's office only to be told you have six months left to live. Would that be a better way to die? Or would you rather not know until the very end? Would it be better to be in the know, and then learn to lead a more meaningful life and make time for your loved ones? Is the pressure too great then?
In RCIY today, I was asked, who do you trust to lead you through life?
I think in my whole life, the answer is the same - my parents. Definitely, they are the ones I trust most. I trust them more than I trust myself. Sometimes I tend to overestimate myself and I make the wrong decisions, up till a point where I begin to distrust myself. I think I have lost confidence in myself and my ability to decisions. I'm beginning to get very fearful to the point that I think I trust others more than myself. I regret some things which I have not done. I regret them every single day of my life.
So I place my trust in my parents and... God. Yes, I do pray sometimes to ask Him for help and I do gain solace in that.
But I'm still fearful.
Today, I stood infront of the figure of Mary, Mother of Christ in front of IHM church and looked into her eyes which were strangely staring back at me. I know it sounds weird, but it was strangely comforting. So in front of her, I made a silent prayer.
God, grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference.
posted by Adelyn @ 11:30 PM
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